It has been some time since I last posted a blog. Mainly because I went back to work as well as looking after our daughter who is a happy and active 18 months old. The other reason is that I had to think about where I wanted to take this blog...as a mom or as a individual. I chose to change the name, not that I am sure anyone would really notice as it does not look I am that popular according to google statistics, but none the less I sort of want to redirect the focus of this blog.
Background
My husband and I both have excellent jobs in a pretty awesome part of the world; a place where I could only dream of as a child as the ultimate place to live...where it is always sunny, sandy beaches at your front door, nice people, easy living...This is Australia, mate.
But we are not quite settled...Why? If you think of life and how you would see yourself as successful, I feel we are fortunate enough to tick at least some of those boxes. Yet, we kept asking ourselves why are we not satisfied? One of the conclusions I have come to is that life is a bit too easy. Definitely not something I like to admit as I know how many people struggle and suffer throughout the world and how many people work hard, like we did to get where we are today. Taboo to say this or not, it is the truth.
I worked so hard to get where I am today only to realize it is not what I need to satisfy me in this life. I feel anxious, stressed over things I never thought I would care about and it took me awhile to understand that it is because I am trying to fit where I do not belong. My soul is crying out to be set free, to fulfil a purpose, to help others and connect to Earth. I just cannot stay and watch my life pass me by so I have to do something.
My perspective
I feel like I am trapped in one of those 50s television series where life is great and their are only little problems like the dog has a water hose attached to him and he runs in the house and somebody walks in with a cake unaware of the situation, slips and the cake falls on their head...basically problems to keep the watcher entertained.
However, neither one of us can stomach the thought of working in an office for the rest of our lives to pay a mortgage on a house that we settled for because it was all we could afford and spending all of our hard earned savings on a trip to see our family overseas only to return to the mundane life of office work to pay the banks for a house that we call home and a whole lot of extra interest on top because they were so nice to buy our home for us. And why? Because we did not want to have to pay someone else's mortgage, we wanted something we could work on, something we could call our own, that is what our parents taught us to do, that is the norm, that is what I dreamed of doing as a kid right? hell no.
I do stress that I do not judge people for above being their ideal life. This is not meant to offend or look down on people interested in that life path, this is just an insight to ours and merely just an alternative perspective.
The Point
This leads to the purpose of this blog, well at least for the next year...to document our breaking out from the Matrix. Our goal is to get a little farm in Germany and attempt to be self employed and ultimately self sufficient. The plan so far:
- To read heaps of books on farming and business. CHECK
- To sell most of our belongings and ship minimal to Germany. Working progress. we are running out of places to sit.
- To quit/take long unpaid service from our jobs and go WWOOFING (http://www.wwoof.org) for three seasons in Germany. Starting March this year.
- Come back and work for six to eight months, digest what we learnt and plan the next attack.
- TBD
The Reason
There are a few reasons for this life change, some are logical, like our parents are getting older and our siblings are having kids and we want to be apart of that. Other reasons are selfish in that we want to make the best of the short time we have in our hosts' beings lifetime in a way we see as ideal. Finally, we want to be apart of healing the Earth, even if we can only afford a small patch of land to nurture and feed only a small number of people good and happy food, it is a start. This last reason/connection is the main drive.
Outlook
I am not saying we are going to be successful at it, or that it is going to be a holiday, or that we won't go back to our jobs and be thankful for them. I do not know the outcome and I guess this is the fun in documenting it.
Next time I share the books we read or are still reading...And if you are intrigued please stay tuned as their will be more. Whenever I get time to write.
